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(soft music)

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<v ->This was taken as part of a series,</v>

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documenting my, I call it my shit show roller coaster.

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(woman laughing)

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'Cause I don't like the term journey.

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I think it was, it made no sense to me

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that there was nothing that reflected,

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or very little that reflected the pain

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that is going through cancer

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and particularly for young women as well.

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I was not seeing many, many photos of that.

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And so I decided to yeah, document everything

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that I was going through

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and I didn't know where it would take me.

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And then, this was taken at the end of that

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and I think that, what other people have told me

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and I think what is in it,

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is that just kind of acceptance.

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Like I let it all out and I was like,

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okay, this is it.

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This is my reality.

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This is my life.

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This is where I'm at.

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And yeah, that's how I ended up getting this shot,

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which was taken into my bedroom and just, yeah so...

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<v ->And how does it feel to see the photograph on the walls,</v>

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of the portrait gallery?

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<v ->Equal parts, horrifying, proud,</v>

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and excited.

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When I first got the call, I honestly was like

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can I take it back?

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(women laughing)

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Like I don't want,

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I don't know if I'm ready to have this photo.

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<v ->Yes of course.</v>
<v ->Seen,</v>

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so publicly.

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And then I reminded myself.

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I was like, no, actually this is why I submitted it,

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is so that it would be seen.

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(soft music)